WOW

So not really sure if anyone is going to really read this. if not who cares.it'll be kinda like a journal. So i'm not gonna rant about my life I'm just going to talk about all the shit that goes on in my life...So here I go.

So I'm going to my Dad's soon (if you know me you know my Dad's and I's history) he lives in San Francisco i love that place sooooooo much.But let's just say i've been pretty low lately.so there's this boy i like he's like my best friend and ever since he told me what he was doing soon i've been pretty sad. he's the reason for my happiness and my pain. stupid right? i know. that's why i kept it a secret. but really i just don't give a fuck anymore.so whatever.also back to my dad.well let's just say he's not the best person.everyone in my family hates him which is understandable.i feel so bad everytime i see him i feel like i'm hurting everyone but i just also can't do anything right so fuck it.well i guess i'll say a few words about me. i'm weird, personally i think i listen to the best music ever,i have really good friends,a great family,but i don't like being around people very much(although the other day i got really lonely which never happens)my life is a winding road.i live in sacramento which is probably one of the worst cities ever.the first chance i get i'm outta here.sometime's i swear i have multiple personality disorder or what ever it's called and sometimes a bit bipolar which scares me.another reason i don't like being around people i don't like hurting people or being rude to them so if they're with me long enough i just know i'm going to end up hurting them which sucks.although everyone i've met says i'm a great person which is really nice:D.so i'll write more later i mean it's only my first blog:p.