Paranormal State

so... i have this friend her name is Breanna. She's a BadassBitch and i love her with all my heart. recently i told her my past through a letter. she read it once in front of me and another time at home, she cried. but i've never seen her cry. she's seen me cry.
she, in response to my letter, wrote me one also, one of the lines says "You are beautiful inside and out" when i read that i cried. i've always felt otherwise and been told otherwise. i met Breanna last year but it feels like i've known her for a lifetime. she tells me to stay true to myself because i tell her things that i don't tell my Mum or Kristen. sooooooo she's kind of a big deal.
But Breanna,
it's you who is beautiful inside and out, you are funny, Beautiful, smart and THE BEST GUITAR PLAYER EVERRRRRRRRR! hehhehe I love you! And always will, no matter what happens.

Grape Juice

I think I'm in love with Lee Pace fuck the other dude. and Kristen's gonna be there for that magical moment. just sayin :p

Currently listening to: Crash-Gwen Stefani

Tropical Colada

HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!!! thisssss week. was and is almost over. so was sick today and it sucked. stayed home from school. then when school was out i walked over to my friends as they were walking home. hahhahah! God, I love them. so. reeally excited to get this new book! i've wanted it for hellaaaa days. ummmm i can't believe how fast this year has gone. it's almost over. damn. best years of my life 2009-2010. hehehhe!
It's also the first official day of fall. i try not to let go of my friends. they mean soooooooo much to me. they make me smile,laugh and best of all love. wow. i have the most boring life in the world. also currently trying out a "new" hairstyle. well it's not exactly new. i just kinda don't brush it after i get out of the shower. sooo ya.
but it's cute it just gives me my natural waves.


Currently Listening To: The Ocean-Tegan And Sara

Goodbye Forever and Always

It's time to go to bed forever and ever. i think i broke a leg. under so much pressure all the sudden. my teeth hurt my body aches to many whores around school. it's totally over between us. fuck it.i'm done. it's over. ow that hurt my heart. -crycrycry- i wish i had a fast forward button so this could be over and done with. maybe i really did get that cancer i talked about. alone just like always. don't know what to do anymore don't know what to say anymore don't know who to talk to anymore. but i'm tired of crying and complaining. people always tell me to be happy and to "move on" well i can't help that i'm depressed it's in my blood. all i can do is be myself around people but, it feels like they still have no fucking idea who i am. so i'm going to try and move on from that boy i fell in love with. although just typing that killed me inside a lot. goodbye you've all been very nice.

Currently Listening to: the antlers-sylvia

Offers the Best.

SOOOOOOOOO I have really good news!!!! turns out He isn't moving!!!!! Today was the first day of school and i saw him all day!!!!!! And he hugged me like the moment I saw him. His hugs are some of the best in the world and he hugged me for a long time i didn't complain i missed him and his scent and his face and plainly him.*long sigh* ohhh once again he was always on my mind. hehhhhhehehehhehe. Today was the first day of school! i want this year to go by kinda slow this will be my last year with him and most of my friends.breathe in breathe out.have a nice night!

Currently Listening to "Oh My Sweet Carolina"-Ryan Adams

La Bamba

Is there ever a time when ur heart feels like it's sinking? Like when you hear bad news. like when Ritchie Valens died. anyway "holiday" was horrible not worth typing.
but i stayed with my grandparents for a week in Salinas! love them soooo much! i love Salinas too.and stayed with my sister too! i love her more than the world! anyway. orientation sucked too. who cares one day i'll be far away from everyone and i'll live alone and won't be bothered. i walked by his house today with my dog my dog stopped on his lawn my heart skipped a few beats.i miss him.sometimes i wish i never became "friends" with him because he just takes up a lot of my thinking space.but then again when were not ditching doorbells or pissing people off or having deep conversations about each other, then, fuck me dude. but he's gone and out of my life forever.lets hope not.anyway Kristen's birthday is coming up soon age 15.fun fun!ooooh in San Francisco I found the apartment that one day i want to live in.its on top of this liquor store in one of the most dangerous places in San Francisco.i live my life on the edge bro.ssssssssoooooo i really hate the smell of cigarettes but weirdly i love the smell of marijuana it's relaxing.goodnight

Stay Strong,Cheyenne Rose Castro
Currently listening to "Just the way you are"-Bruno Mars

Late?

So uhhhhhhhhhh been really lazy.tomorrow I leave to go on my uhh "holiday" in San Francisco. uhhhhh. hung out with my sister-in-law yesterday. it was a lot of fun. first we went to the mall then Hayden my niece started freaking out(she's only 4 months) then we left and drove around for a while looking for a place to eat. We tried "La Bou" and there was this hella long line. Then we ended up getting mexican food that i'm still finishing. hahah. and then we talked for a long time it was fun. :D
uhh the day before that which was wedensday there was an internet fight that this boy statred with me. hahahhahahahhaha. he's lame. but whatever. ummm so i'm hungry. probably going to finish my Mexican food haahhaha. anyway. i spent all night packing and putting on outfits that i'm going to be wearing to San Francisco I put on all of them. i'm really excited for the cold because i mostly have winter/fall clothes anyway. (you see I'm not fit for Sacramento it's always hot)...... uhhh going stalking today. later though. hahhahahah. anyway.

Stay Strong, With Love, Cheyenne Rose Castro,
En train d'écouter = Shwayze-vous rentrerez chez vous. <--- French :DDD
Currently listening to=Shwayze-Get You Home.<---- English :D