Saturday, July 31, 2010

My Cities My Homes My Dreams



So i wanted to write again because I got really bored and blah. So in my other post i mentioned that I'm going to San Francisco for a week. i'm so damn excited. the first time i remember going there I was in like first grade.i was told i've been there before though i think but anyway, i remember sitting in between my brother and sister and saw that we were approaching the Bay Bridge I got scared and said "I don't want to go on the bridge" or something like that i'm pretty sure they laughed but then my brother pulled me towards him and hugged me <3 :D, all the way till we got off the bridge it was the sweetest thing ever.(i was really afraid of bridges when i was little) then we just explored the city all day. But now the bridge doesn't scare me i actually like going over it now because i know right over it is "my city by the bay". But ever since I remember going there when i was little i have treasured that place. a few years ago i even lived there not for very long but i did.don't feel like talkin about it too lazy.but i promised myself that one day i was going to live there.and i did but now that i'm older that's the only place i want to be sometimes. and it's not because my dad lives there it's because it's so full of life and there's things to do there for any age unlike nasty Sacramento where you can't do shit unless your 21 or older.like i said before, the first chance i get i'm out of this piece of shit city. i plan on living in France for a while when i'm older. and also i want my profession to be an RN(Registered Nurse)it's not what i dreamed of being and it still isn't but to me it is the next best thing.and a french major. But San Francisco man, great place to be:D
The Castro is a nice place to be I've driven through it several times.i plan on moving there when i'm older and permanently living in Canada I've wanted to since I was 7 or 8.when i get there next weekend i plan on telling my dad to take me to see the "painted ladies" you know those houses in a row that are in like every movie ever filmed there? ya those one's.one of the best times i ever had there was when we drove deep deep on the city and looked at all these weird buildings in San Fran at nite like we saw these modern bars but the walls were glass and nightclubs with bright lights people in oddly dressed clothing.FUCKIN' AMAZING. another reason I love this place is the beach i mean the beach has been my favorite place to be since i could remember. i could sit in the sand all day and just watch the waves and not get bored although the ocean has almost killed me a few times i'm up for the beach all the time.but who knows maybe i won't do any of those things. but like someone told me earlier "Just follow your heart" which is what i'm going to do and i encourage everyone to do that too.well sorry to bore you so go do something else.

currently listening to Dashboard Confessional=Stolen

Friday, July 30, 2010

WOW

So not really sure if anyone is going to really read this. if not who cares.it'll be kinda like a journal. So i'm not gonna rant about my life I'm just going to talk about all the shit that goes on in my life...So here I go.

So I'm going to my Dad's soon (if you know me you know my Dad's and I's history) he lives in San Francisco i love that place sooooooo much.But let's just say i've been pretty low lately.so there's this boy i like he's like my best friend and ever since he told me what he was doing soon i've been pretty sad. he's the reason for my happiness and my pain. stupid right? i know. that's why i kept it a secret. but really i just don't give a fuck anymore.so whatever.also back to my dad.well let's just say he's not the best person.everyone in my family hates him which is understandable.i feel so bad everytime i see him i feel like i'm hurting everyone but i just also can't do anything right so fuck it.well i guess i'll say a few words about me. i'm weird, personally i think i listen to the best music ever,i have really good friends,a great family,but i don't like being around people very much(although the other day i got really lonely which never happens)my life is a winding road.i live in sacramento which is probably one of the worst cities ever.the first chance i get i'm outta here.sometime's i swear i have multiple personality disorder or what ever it's called and sometimes a bit bipolar which scares me.another reason i don't like being around people i don't like hurting people or being rude to them so if they're with me long enough i just know i'm going to end up hurting them which sucks.although everyone i've met says i'm a great person which is really nice:D.so i'll write more later i mean it's only my first blog:p.